A realisation I came to the other day
May. 17th, 2020 05:34 pmA great many people in isolation: horny af. Folornly looking forward to the day it is reasonable to go on a tindr/grindr spree. Envying the Dutch their government advice to singles (vis, establish temporarily monogamous fuckbuddy agreements).
Me: Sort of vaguely remembers that sex was nice? Was supposed to be something I was going to... prioritise... not forget about (again). Have to actively *work* to consume a fictional sex scene.
However: urgently, aimlessly yet desperately seeking Just The Right essay about sex. It must be out there somewhere. The essay that will provide combination validation and brain-rearranging insight! That will reshape my thoughts on sexuality and provide a sense of authenticity at the same time!
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This is somehow the most Me mental state to have got into, geez.
Me: Sort of vaguely remembers that sex was nice? Was supposed to be something I was going to... prioritise... not forget about (again). Have to actively *work* to consume a fictional sex scene.
However: urgently, aimlessly yet desperately seeking Just The Right essay about sex. It must be out there somewhere. The essay that will provide combination validation and brain-rearranging insight! That will reshape my thoughts on sexuality and provide a sense of authenticity at the same time!
...
This is somehow the most Me mental state to have got into, geez.
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Date: 2020-05-17 05:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-05-17 05:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-05-17 07:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-05-17 07:46 pm (UTC)Something people write essays about, obvs.
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Date: 2020-05-18 11:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-05-18 01:20 pm (UTC)The desperately searching for The Perfect Insightful Essay About Sex is also not new, but it's only with everyone around going through simultaneous isolation-libdio-fuckery that I realise it might be what my brain does when any regular person's brain would start hitting the 'frustrated and horny' buttons. (That... tracks. I mean. I realised I was queer and dealt with it by going to the library. Abstraction is kind of my thing.)
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Date: 2020-05-19 01:15 pm (UTC)I'm totally with you on the search for insightful essays, though.
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Date: 2020-05-19 01:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-05-19 02:31 pm (UTC)