Andy Quan - Down to You
Jan. 12th, 2013 09:19 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
highlyeccentricI trampled those days, a lion, believed
in myself with a ferocity that has since
never been the same. They were days
when self-knowing became real, a dented
bud of a tulip infused with its own
fragility and what it might reveal.
I'd discovered Great Men. This late
in the century, in so vast a country, so
few gay poets. On my invitation, you
read for the university's first gay
pride week. The dance that night,
dining tables upended, chairs stacked
in corners, nervous men and women
from town mixed in with students. I dressed
in what I hoped gay men might wear. You
asked my straight friend to dance, he tried
not to show how proud he was not to
be an oaf, and when it was our turn, after
odd late-eighties tracks and disco throw-
backs: everything you held high and told
yourself was true. It was my first dance
with another man, my right hand
awkward on you rhip. You told me
it was your favourite Joni Mitchell song.
We glided, slow-motion skaters, on that
cafeteria's hardwood floor, the man I
would become blooming in the distance,
pairs of men and women in our
orbit, dim lights suspended from the old
rafters above. As the days came down to you.
- From Out of the Box: Contemporary Australian Gay and Lesbian Poets
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Fair warning: I've managed to establish a habit of reading poetry before bed and/or first thing on waking. I think I shall start posting a poem-a-day this year.
in myself with a ferocity that has since
never been the same. They were days
when self-knowing became real, a dented
bud of a tulip infused with its own
fragility and what it might reveal.
I'd discovered Great Men. This late
in the century, in so vast a country, so
few gay poets. On my invitation, you
read for the university's first gay
pride week. The dance that night,
dining tables upended, chairs stacked
in corners, nervous men and women
from town mixed in with students. I dressed
in what I hoped gay men might wear. You
asked my straight friend to dance, he tried
not to show how proud he was not to
be an oaf, and when it was our turn, after
odd late-eighties tracks and disco throw-
backs: everything you held high and told
yourself was true. It was my first dance
with another man, my right hand
awkward on you rhip. You told me
it was your favourite Joni Mitchell song.
We glided, slow-motion skaters, on that
cafeteria's hardwood floor, the man I
would become blooming in the distance,
pairs of men and women in our
orbit, dim lights suspended from the old
rafters above. As the days came down to you.
- From Out of the Box: Contemporary Australian Gay and Lesbian Poets
----
Fair warning: I've managed to establish a habit of reading poetry before bed and/or first thing on waking. I think I shall start posting a poem-a-day this year.
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Date: 2013-01-12 03:27 am (UTC)This strikes me as an excellent habit, and I may well follow suit, especially in the "before bed" bit.