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Feb. 15th, 2009 10:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
highlyeccentricTo say that I am happy. Happy as in I spent an hour drinking tea from a tiny cup and reading a book about female friendships in early 20th century Australia/Australian expat literary circles. Happy as in my desk is set up and all I need now is a LOOOOONG LAN cable. Also my MP3 is charged and connected to my speakers and, to round off this set of excellence, I am wearing my favourite comfort jacket.
Probably still lonely, since I'm posting nine hundred times today. (Also I have a case of Disappearing Housemate, which is worrying since she was driving from Melbourne this afternoon and, as I have lost my phone, I do not know if she has sent me messages to say she's not coming home / running late / eaten by wildebeest.) But I'm feeling... optimistically lonely? I have a functioning social life, as much of a one as I had in Sydney and more than I had at home. The problem, such as it is, is that I spent last year with my life wrapped around K's, and the year-and-a-bit before that intensely twined with the Wife, and the year before THAT I was a sort of orbiting planet around the TessNReena binary star. I didn't go anywhere or do anything much or talk to many people I didn't live right next to, but they were always around. The last time I've been not constantly surrounded by people was first year, and then I spent every spare minute online talking to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
gryphonvere.
When I got to Canberra I was so glad to be on my own for once. The novelty is kinda wearing off, but I'll adjust. I really need to spend some not in the sort of intense friendships I seem to have formed in the last few years, remember how to be alone in my head again.
As for friends... I'm sulky about the necessity of making a whole new set, since I liked the set K and I gathered last year so very well. But I havexxlucyferxx and tahira_saki, and I would much rather have two good friends (and these two were good friends the moment I laid eyes on them) whom I see every couple of weeks than the kinds of friends I had for many years at uni: ones you ate with every day and then never emailed after uni broke up, ones you saw every week at church and bible study but never felt compelled to meet up with outside of those circles.
sommeille, when you come online: email me your postal address pretty please? If anyone sees her in person before she gets the intarwub back, pls filch her contact details for me ( I don't even have her phone number).
Probably still lonely, since I'm posting nine hundred times today. (Also I have a case of Disappearing Housemate, which is worrying since she was driving from Melbourne this afternoon and, as I have lost my phone, I do not know if she has sent me messages to say she's not coming home / running late / eaten by wildebeest.) But I'm feeling... optimistically lonely? I have a functioning social life, as much of a one as I had in Sydney and more than I had at home. The problem, such as it is, is that I spent last year with my life wrapped around K's, and the year-and-a-bit before that intensely twined with the Wife, and the year before THAT I was a sort of orbiting planet around the TessNReena binary star. I didn't go anywhere or do anything much or talk to many people I didn't live right next to, but they were always around. The last time I've been not constantly surrounded by people was first year, and then I spent every spare minute online talking to
gryphonvere.When I got to Canberra I was so glad to be on my own for once. The novelty is kinda wearing off, but I'll adjust. I really need to spend some not in the sort of intense friendships I seem to have formed in the last few years, remember how to be alone in my head again.
As for friends... I'm sulky about the necessity of making a whole new set, since I liked the set K and I gathered last year so very well. But I have
xxlucyferxx and tahira_saki, and I would much rather have two good friends (and these two were good friends the moment I laid eyes on them) whom I see every couple of weeks than the kinds of friends I had for many years at uni: ones you ate with every day and then never emailed after uni broke up, ones you saw every week at church and bible study but never felt compelled to meet up with outside of those circles.sommeille, when you come online: email me your postal address pretty please? If anyone sees her in person before she gets the intarwub back, pls filch her contact details for me ( I don't even have her phone number).
The second part of the TessNReena Binary Star
Date: 2009-02-16 01:22 pm (UTC)Speak soon...xoxo Reena