Try Again...

attempted updating last night, but FF crashed. which was probably a good thing given my bouncing-off-the-walls type state at the time.

Gah. still fighting with the uni timetable unit... It's failed to put me in Safdar's tute for ARIS this semester. I know when his is, but not where... GAH. Its put me in 'tute four' which didn't exist last semester... if i'm REALLY lucky that'll be Safdar and not Shboul. Betcha i'm not lucky, though. I think 'tute four' is just last semester's tute three renamed, and the new one is probably tute one. Which i can't get to because of French. Which in itself is a Right Pain in the Behind because it's all on tuesday... all three hours of it... GAH! perhaps all this having wednesday off isn't really worth the bother? Given that i have bible study and everything anyway.

Have come to the conclusion that I AM glad to be back... was feeling very ambivalent about it when I got here, and had been downright miserable yesterday morning (why do i always end up miserable in the shower??)Went off last night and goofed around for a few hours in Tock's room with Sass and Kate (while tock pottered around us doing whatever she does). Dancing around like an idiot is definitely good exercise and good for the soul, too. Then came back to go to bed... but was entirely too hyped up.

I'd endeavoured to avoid the getting-attatched-to-newcastlites by not seeing anyone for a few weeks. Of course, by then was so lonely that going down to New Lambton on sunday was a bit 'bammo!' and spun me out quite a bit... had a LONG talk to Rah on friday night, which was good in many ways, but on the other hand we talk so much about the UYF...
it's not so much that i miss people, although i do, but i'm used to that. I guess its that the UYF as a whole has this hold on me, like that's exactly where i ought to be and where my energy ought to be going... In a way i feel i owe it something for everything i've got out of it... but that's not the whole of it.
its not even that i feel like i fit in perfectly there... Never have. It's always been that i feel i COULD fit perfectly, if only i found the key. I blamed it on distance a lot, planned for years to go to Newcastle Uni and Newcastle UCATSA and somehow that would fix everything. It probably wouldn't, but part of me still wonders what the hell i'm doing down here.
In my more cyncial moments i wonder if the whole reason i've wanted to be in leadership is because part of me thinks that's the automatic key to being 'in' the UYF as opposed to just turning up. Hope not, though.
Its going to be... interesting... over christmas as EC planning really kicks off and i have to sit by... oh well. we'll see. one thing i'm NOT doing is cook liason (that has this terrible 'famous last words' ring to it...)

k. longest entry yet, now gotta go write shopping list.

WHEEE!!!!

Had Kate up for a cup of tea (Russian Caravan, rather interesting taste.) Spent some time loudly, shreikingly debating HP.6, and then we (oh, all right, she) GOT IT! Carreered through the college, crashed Tock's birthday party to demand someone give us a copy of HP.6 so we could check it, dragged everyone but Tock and Liyana (who hasn't read it)outside, where we shreiked, repeated ourselves several times, jumped up and down, shreiked some more, got the book, reread bits, confirmed that WE KNOW WHO RAB IS! then continued loud, shrieking debates about future plotlines and the possibility that Harry will have to die...

You know you're nuts when debating a book that isn't coming out for another few years is more important than birthday cake! Had to knock on the new girl's door to tell her that no one was being murdered, we were that riotous :D